We're back to reader questions today--who knew the questions would end up yielding a month of entries!--and one that came up a few times was about my move from Texas to Virginia. One reader wanted to know what prompted it; another wanted to know if it was difficult. (The short answer to the last question is yes, yes it was.)
I am a sixth-generation native Texan. That's a big deal in Texas because many families came after the Civil War. Ours was there long before, fighting for Texas independence from Mexico. My ancestors were outlaws and preachers, pioneer wives and Native American girls. My identity is purely Texan. I say y'all; my speech is fairly neutral but I can drawl with the best of them when I get around other Texans. I wear silver from Mexico and cowboy boots and I put hot sauce on most everything. I LOVE Texas. I love the fierce independence of it, the slow pace, the comfortable melding of different cultures. I love the fact that Texans like to know where you come from, but they value who you are. Competence is more important than connections, at least in certain places. It is the south, it is the west, and it's the best parts of both.
However. (You knew there'd be a however, didn't you?) When you spend so much of your life being defined by one place, it is difficult to write a new definition of yourself. It is difficult to see a different image in the mirror than the one you've always seen. And if you feel like you're ready for a new adventure, Texas is an awfully big place to break free of. The five of us, my parents, husband, child, and I, were ready for something new. The timing was never going to be better. No one's career was so fulfilling that it prevented us from picking up and moving east, retracing the steps our ancestors had taken a few centuries before. We went back to Virginia, where both of my parents had family during colonial times, where old family names have been etched on church bells and headstones for three hundred years. We settled in a town where our families had lived before this country WAS a country, perhaps because we hoped it would feel familiar somehow.
It is familiar now, but that has been hard-won and taken some time. Six weeks after we moved, I had to have surgery, and six weeks after that, a hurricane tore a path from the coast, felling trees that had been standing since an army in gray marched past on their way north. Those things were difficult to take and more than once we exchanged nervous glances, wondering if we'd made a mistake. And then, a year after we moved to Virginia, we were finally able to take possession of the wonderful old house we had bought nine months before.
It is a magic house, at least some people think so, and from the moment we crossed the threshold we came home, in a physical and spiritual sense. Two months after we moved in, I got my book deal, and a year later, my husband left his job to pursue a new career in a field he loves. Our daughter changed schools, and we became prosperous in ways we never had been before. Relationships have deepened, goals have been met, and those who knew us before marvel at the changes that this move has created. It's as if we took one step to pull ourselves out of the rut we were in and the universe said, "Wouldn't you rather have this nice springboard instead?" And so now I think that a change of scenery is perhaps the best way to achieve a change of self.
Housekeeping note: had an issue or two with comments yesterday but we seem to be in order now. And a completely random question for the masses: how many podcasts do you subscribe to and how do you keep up with them? Do you go back and listen to the entire archive or do you just jump right in? I ask because I realized I just broke 1000 podcasts on my ipod that I have yet to listen to, in part because I'm trying to work my way through archives of the ones I enjoy the most. I'm deleting as soon as I listen, but it's rather like bailing the Titanic with a teaspoon...